•{ Behind the mask . . .

I take my time / To set the stage / Make sure everything / Is all in place. / Even though I’ve got the lines rehearsed / A picture only paints a thousand words . . .

I sat in front of the mirror and expertly affixed the mask to my face. It fit perfectly. I knew it would. My eyes looked out from beneath the black leather, watching the movements of the girl in the mirror. As I finger-combed my hair to frame my face, I wasn’t too sure the mirror’s reflection belonged to me. She looked so different.

You may think / I’m just fine / How could anything / Ever be out of line?

They were waiting for me as I walked onto the set. The stylist came over and fussed lightly over my appearance giving it an extra tug here and there. Off to the side, my manager chattered excitedly to someone on the other end of her phone. The look on her face said she booked another photo shoot for me and was already calculating her fee.

As I reached my spot I saw the photographer appraising me while he tapped his camera against his chin. He was assessing my personality so he could capture it. This is it, I said to myself. Three, two, one, and right on cue came my coy trickle of mirth and eagerness of doing something exciting that had a way of lighting up a room. Yeah. That’s it. People like that.

Things aren’t always what they seem / You’re only seeing part of me / There’s more than you could ever know / Behind the scenes . . .

The photographer crouched near me as I laid with my back against the floor. “You’ve never been more lovely than you are right now.” He backed away and I drew in a slow breath as his camera clicked.

The producer of the photo shoot gave instruction and I followed without skipping a beat. Flick went a switch and I shut my eyes to the sudden bright light. I was reminded of child’s logic: if you can’t see them, they can’t see you. But they could see me, even with my eyes closed. It was okay because, in my imaginary world of animosity, I wasn’t me.

The girl in the mask, the girl on the floor, she was confident. She was alluring. She was sexy. She wasn’t me.

I’m incomplete and I’m undone / But I suppose like everyone / There’s so much more that’s going on / Behind the scenes . . .

Lyrics from: Behind The Scenes – Francesca Battistelli

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Wearing:

Outfit: Mushilu – Elise (Dress black) @ The Fetish Fair { Until Aug. 25th }
Accessories:
• Mushilu Elise necklace @ The Fetish Fair { Until Aug. 25th }
• Addams // Sury Evil Bracelet // Maitreya – N*9

Pose: :LW: Poses – Beautiful Pain @ The XXX Event ( Exclusive ) Until Sept. 5th

•{ Relax . . .

Do something nice for yourself everyday.
Do the things that refresh your soul and give you peace.
You owe it to yourself.

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Build:.Mushilu : Roman bath @ The Secret Affair {Until July 29th}

.:revival:. rattan ottoman small @ Indie Teepee { Until Aug 6th}
.:revival:. pottery & sand @ Indie Teepee { Until Aug 6th}

Trompe Loeil – Mischa Lounger Natural PG
NOMAD // Brocante // Lace Table

From the :[The.Plastik]:: ‘Starry Skies’ Gatcha @ The Epiphany {Until Aug. 15th}
:[P]:- Moonie Mirror Celestial
:[P]: -Globa Decor Heavenly EXCLUSIVE
:[P]:- Goddess Pillows Heavenly EXCLUSIVE
:[P]:- Goddess Pillows Celestial
:[P]:- Twinkle Wall Hanger Celestial
:[P]:- Moone Birdfeeder Celestial
:[P]:- Oscillare Decor Celestial
:[P]:- Starred Glass Celestial
:[P]:- Flora Observer Celestial
:[P]:- Flora Samples Celestial

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Letters to Heaven . . .

Goodbye pain
I’ll wipe my face
I’ll smile now
‘Cause you’re in a better place.

And all those things I didn’t say
Will have to reach you another way.

I’ll send my letters to Heaven
To you, from me.
Reads: Missing you,
Signed, Lonely.
– original poetry

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Wearing:

Top: ::Una :: – Mehra @ The Seasons Story { Opens April 7th }
Pants: Blueberry – Melanie – Sky

Pose: Le Poppycock *Stay Fly* Mens Only Hunt 9 Pose & Prop Gift

Scene:
-Garden- by anc Ltd.  “spray” wild flower{blue} h
Mushilu. – My Gears @ We ❤ RP

-& | The Metal Men . . .

The food rations were about to run out. With the limited food, the people in the camp were growing hungrier. Everything had been burned or destroyed when the Metal Men appeared almost a year ago. They brought with them death, destruction, and the end modern civilization.

Scouts went out in teams.  Each time they brought back what supplies they could. Soon not only did the supplies start to dwindle, but the people started disappearing too. The ones who made it back told stories of the Metal Men attacking and taking away those who didn’t escape.  No one knew what had happened to them, as they were never seen again. Some people believed that they were used to create more Metal Men.

Last week a scout made it back to the camp – haggard and badly injured. He brought news a warehouse 20 miles to the West that may contain food. The only problem was that the area was guarded by Metal Men. He said that they looked old and rusty, maybe they were even nonfunctioning. It was decided that in a few days the scout would take a group with him and they would make their way to the warehouse.

However, one particular young lady, who had been listening, decided to go out and see it for herself.

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Wearing:

Skin: :[Plastik]:- Carvera Skin (Femme):// Latitae  @ Skin Fair 2017
Hair: .:EMO-tions..  *SUN* -BLACK/WHITE @ We
Top: Yasum  *Xena Coat*Earth
Pants: Yasum *Xena Leathers*Earth

Pose: Del May  – Nothing to see here [male]

Scene:
Mushilu.- Robot In stones Silver @ We
Mushilu.- Robot Ruins Copper @ We
Razor Bird – Broken gate, Posts and side fencing

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My battle . . .

Thought my battles were done ,
but another one needs to be won.

All the lessons that I’ve learned,
get me ready for another turn.

Shadows of the past
caught up to me at last.

Life’s wanting me to give in,
it’s time to rise up and take another win.

• Original poetry

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Wearing:

Outfit: Mushliu – FairyBones Gacha  @ Fantasy Gatcha Carnival {Until Mar. 7th}
Hair: Yasum*MESH*Cyber Dreads*headpiece (old Gatcha)
Accessories: C L A Vv. Feather Tribal Ear Cuff (Natural)
Arte – War Paint – 6 Colours
Izzie’s – Face & Body Blood & Wounds

pose: *F*ckin Ningas* Mandragora Pose + Katana

Scene:
{Roawenwood} Red Leafed Maple
{Roawenwood} Dungeon Entrance Ruins – Treasure Chest Feb. Exclusive
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I see this world . . .

“If we are willing to kill in order to save this world, then the world is not worth saving….”

I heard this saying a long time ago when I was younger. I can’t remember where I saw it and, not matter how “ great” the internet is, I can’t find it anywhere. Though that doesn’t matter.

I’ve never understood the mentality people have when they think that they can make things better by bringing other people down. How does that help anyone? Sure, it may help you for the moment because you suddenly have the “ high ground”, but you’re not guaranteed to stay there. Just as you knocked someone down, the same will be returned.

Not everyone is going to be a winner, and not everyone is going to succeed. There will be people who stand in your way and people that you don’t like, but that doesn’t give you the right to treat them badly.

Many people talk about making things better, but is it better if you have to hurt people to do it?

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Wearing:
Dress: Una – Shansa Short @ We ❤ RP { Opening Feb. 4 }
Hair: *ARGRACE* KOHAKU – Whites
Boots: ALEGRIA Minerva Boots Light Silver (old Gatcha / store closed )

Accessories:
*May’s Soul* Africa necklace gold
#2 Blueberry – Angelberry – RARE – Wings – Pure @ The Epiphany { Until Feb. 15th }

Set: Mushilu. MoosMonolite @ We ❤ RP { Opening Feb. 4 }

Pose: an lar [poses] – The Flutter Series @ SaNaRae {Until Feb. 18 }

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When you open your eyes . . .

Once upon a time, my eyes were closed.  I stayed in my own world and was at peace. Then one day I opened my eyes and took a step outside. The things that I saw, the things that I heard, made me wonder if i was still living in the same world.

Things look different once you decide to open up your eyes. Is it better, or worse? To answer that, I propose another question: Would you rather live inside your own world, or experience something new?

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Wearing:

Skin: :[Plastik]:- Acquus Skin:// Female @ The Secret Affair { Until Jan. 29th }
Top: .Una. Coral Silver @ The Secret Affair { Until Jan. 29th }
Skirt: .::Dead Dollz::. Arcadia Gown – White
Accessories:
.ARISE. Blind Eyes / Aqua
=Kio= Sirens Ear – Sea Horse

Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Marissa Mesh Hair

Set: Mushilu – My Lily @ The Secret Affair { Until Jan. 29th }
-Garden- by {anc}  “secret garden” ROSE

Pose: L y r i u m-  Portrait Poses

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