Everything was going well before the phone call. It was the third night of her first tour and things could not have been better. The energy of the roaring fans invigorated her enough to where she could forget about all the things happening back at home. At least, for a little while.
Wanting to add a new song to her line-up, she was in the middle of a rehearsal. A member of her staff came to the stage and said she had a phone call. She had had a sinking feeling in her chest as she took the phone. The rest of the band went on a break and she had answered. “Hey, what’s up?…. Oh. Oh, I see. Y-yeah… Now she’s at peace. . . . Okay.” For the next few moments, the only thing she could do was look at the phone.
“I stood on this stage, night after night, reminding the broken it would be alright. But right now? Oh, right now I just can’t. . .“
A little while later the band came back and found her sitting on the stage with lyric sheets strewn about. When they asked if everything was okay she was snapped back to reality, for she had zoned out in the grief that had accompanied the phone call. What could she do? There was a performance that tonight and canceling was not an option. She was a performer. She would perform.
She forced out a laugh while quickly scrubbing her face with the palm of her hands. “It’s nothing,” she said. “I think I finally got the song for tonight though.”
They accepted her answer and paid attention as she picked up the sheets off the floor and began instructions for the song. Internally she was shaking and her head was dizzy with all the information she was trying to process, but this was something that would have to be dealt with later. For now, the only thing that mattered was getting through the night’s performance like everything was okay.
“It’s easy to sing when there’s nothing to bring me down. But what will I say when I’m held to the flames like I am right now?. . .”
[ Inspired by the song, “Even If” by MercyMe ]
Wearing:
Sleeves: *{Junbug}* Cher Sleeves @ Feverfete
Boots: REIGN.– MISHI THIGH HIGHS COCOA
Hair: ICONIC:: Alexandra
Accessories : Maxi Gossamer – Babette – Combo Small – JET SILVER
Set Design:
Madras Fame and Fortune Decor @ Feverfete
Nutmeg. Old Music Sheets. Floor
Serenity Style – Music is Life – Dj Speaker @ Feverfete
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