•{ And Even Now . . .

She sat by the riverbank fiddling with a sheet of paper in her hands. Bright pink flowers that she had picked earlier rested at her side. There had bene a lot of things on her mind recently – more than usual – and they all centered around one person in particular. Usually the memories were fleeting, coming and going within seconds, but lately they have been lingering.

Even as she sat there she heard his laughter and turned her head down as she saw him roll his eyes at her again and end it with that trademark smirk. Her skin prickled when he placed his hand on her shoulder. Perhaps she was loosing her mind. These memories were so vivid and clear. She would swear he was standing right there.

“It’s three in the morning, just me and my demons at war again.
So I’m calling in, are You listening . . . “

It’s strange how things work. Some time she had it all together, and then there were times where she couldn’t sleep for days or even weeks at a time. Still, she was miles from where she was before, yet for some reason, memories and feelings were crashing in on her like a tidal wave. One of them stuck out the most: it was the last time she saw him. He had kissed her on the forehead and said he’d see her tomorrow before he turned and walked out the door. How could she have known that would be the last time she’d see him alive.

“You made a man this fragile. You made a heart that can break. . .
You make me love so hard when everything I love just leaves.
Are you sure there’s nothing wrong with me?”

She sighed as she looked out across the water. The paper she had been holding was now a boat. Paper boats – that was one of their ‘things’. They would make the boats and race them down the river at the park.. He always won.

People had been worried about her after he passed, but she put on a brave face and carried on, never fully dealing with it. Truth was, that not dealing with it was crippling her in ways she couldn’t explain. Maybe this year she would be able to face her feelings and thoughts and process them instead of running from them.

“I know this ain’t for nothing. There’s nothing You don’t make.
I know You got Your reasons, this sh*t’s just hard to take.
I don’t mean to criticize You, I know I’m hard to teach.
I know you tell me there’s nothing wrong with me . . . “

She set the boat in the water and placed a few flower petals on it. Afterwards she gave the boat a small push and sat back to watch it slowly drift away. Softly she whispered to herself, “I still miss you . . .”

— Song lyrics from “Dear God” by Hunter Hayes


Wearing
Shorts:*COCO*_Flare Denim Shorts
Top: Scandalize.. Nessiha TOP. Fluor
Hair: Stealthic – Haven (Browns)
Tattoo: Stardust – Eliza @ Uber 

Pose is :LW: BENTO Poses – I Still Miss You @ Belle Event 

•{ What Makes Us Different . . .

The things that make us different
Are things that make us the same
We don’t share a first
Or even a last name

You don’t dress the way that I do
And my music hurts your ears
But as the earth is spinning
We share all seasons and years

Listen to my story
I want to hear all yours too

Then maybe at the end you’ll see
I’m just the same as you


Wearing:
Hair: Yasum*MESH*Cyber Dreads*EPIC*FEMALE (old gacha)
Tattoo: :[ET]: Cyber – Black
Wings: lassitude & ennui Steampunk fairy wings @ We love RP  

•{ On The Fence . . .

There are times in life where you’re stuck ‘on the fence’ about where to go, things to do, and even the people in your life, and that’s okay. It’s when those things start to bring you heartache, misery, and pain that it’s time to pack your bags and move on.


Wearing:
Outfit: Una -. Road Trip Dress
Hair: Analog Dog -Breyonna @ Salon 52

Set design:

Fence:Serenity Style – Aegeas Country Fence
Pebbles: DaD DESIGN “Pebbles”
Suitcases: SSP Anywhere But Here suitcase prop
[KO SHIIT] Suitcase

Pose is from  :LW: BENTO Poses– – I’m Ready @ Tres Chic

•{ In a book . . .

He was outside, enjoying his coffee, a few cookies, and a book he had found in the attic of their house. It didn’t look like much, but something about it had caught his attention enough to make him pick it up. The book was more interesting than it first seemed, for it was actually an old diary of someone who owned the house well over 80 years ago.

“Ryanna!” He called out to her after having read something particularly interesting. His wife wasn’t too far for she was doing some gardening work. “Ryanna! Come here. You have to take a look at this.”

She put down what she was doing and made her way over. “What is it?” She knelt on the side of his bench and leaned over, supporting herself on his shoulder and reading over it.

He held up the book and she scanned the pages, her eyes growing wider. “Now that, that’s interesting.”

The things you can find in a book. . . .


Wearing:

Kulaan (check out his Flickr)
Top – //Ascend// – Jacob Long Cardigan
Sneakers [Deadwool] – Chase Sneakers Black
Pants – Cold Ash – HOLLOWAY Ripped Jeans
BraceletRealEvil Industries – Striker Bracelet

Ryanna
Hair: KMH Hair F137 @Salon 52
Outfit: Addams // Pheobe

pose is from Something New– Lazy Afternoon (w/couch/coffee/cookies)

•{ Always been enough . . .

“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough..”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook


Wearing:
Top: Entice – Hung Up Top @ The Vintage Fair
Shorts: Entice – Hung Up Shorts @ The Vintage Fair
Hair: TRUTH Vivid

Pose is  from Diversion – Take Me Away – Couple Pose (New Group Gift)

Vintage Fair 2020

•{ A Break . . .

I just need a break. There’s been so much going on right now that I’m being pulled all over. But a break is coming soon. I need it. I’m sure I’m not the only one. Until then, I’ll take a moment to breathe and reflect on the good things in life and what I have.

Each person deserves a day away in which no problems are confronted, no solutions searched for. Each of us needs to withdraw from the cares which will not withdraw from us.”
― Maya Angelou, Wouldn’t Take Nothing for My Journey Now


Wearing:
Outfit: BBK: Timeless Dress @ The Vintage Fair
Accessories: Ohemo – Dolly sunglasses @ The Vintage Fair

Pose is from FOXCITY Vacay Bento Pose Set
Shot in the FOXCITY Photo Booth – Poolside

Vintage Fair 2020

•{ When You Sing . . .

Raise your voice
And sing out loud
No one here is ever gonna
Drown you out

Comes from deep down
Reaching all the way to your soul
It’s time to let the world know
So here we go

Just sing
When your down
When no one can be found

Just sing
From your heart
Bring about a new start

Cause when you sing
There’s magic in your voice
Let it out
You can shout
Tell the whole world about it

Just sing
. . . Just sing


Wearing:
Dress: TO.KISKI – Madonna Cocktel Dress 80s Cherry @ The Vintage Fair
Hair: [NYNE] Group Gift Hair – Kayli #30
Accessories: Eclectica Peacock Headpieces @ The Vintage Fair
Makeup: ~Shiny Stuffs~ Lelutka Rad Blushes BOM@ The Vintage Fair

Pose is Poseidon – The Crooner

Vintage Fair 2020